Quandry

Wow, way more than the next day, right!

I am currently pondering a very important question.  The purpose of this fast is to bring me to a new maturity level so I can be prepared to enter into positive relationships once it is over.  But is it helpful, then, to curb the chance at a fun and possibly fulfilling relationship purely for the sake of this artificial relationship-free period?

Of course I only ask myself things like this after the fact.  There's no way to build on this relationship now.  The opportunity has passed.  To preserve fast, I had to completely remove myself from the situation in which I saw this person every day.  It was getting too hard...and awkward.  I'd forgotten how uncomfortable sexual tension can be when you can't do anything about it.  It's fun when there's a chance of satisfaction. Otherwise it just kind of sucks.

Well, today is a Climate Change Action Day!  10/10/10! So I'm not taking my car anywhere today.  It's feet and public transport.  My grocery list will have to wait til tomorrow when I can schlep everything back to the apartment in a car.  The weather has provided a lovely day for walking, and all the young people are out and about.  Calif., you really can bring the sexy weather!  Now bring me some young men to match!