Sunday, June 5, 2011
May addendum
Oh yeah! I couldn't choose between my men, either. Each is so different, and good for different reasons and different occasions. I'm going to sit back and let it all happen. It's something I'd generally never do, but shit, what I normally do is a load of bollocks. Game on, America.
The Feast -- May
Well, readers, May was a pretty tame month in terms of romance. I was busy travelling and working. As for travel, I went to Toronto to visit one of my very best friends on the planet. She lives in a smaller town outside of the city, which I really love, because I get to drive through the countryside a little bit. It made me a kind of homesick for Sonoma County (about 60 miles north of where I live now, where I lived for 5 years), with farm land here and there, trees and moors, then blamo, back in the middle of a city again. Somehow, cities don't feel so big anymore once I go to the outskirts and spend some time and meet some people from the fringe. Cities are this chaotic, swallowing thing when stuck in the middle of one, with no path out. But when you come to the edge and look back, it's almost like you can take anything they're going to throw at you. New York City is unmanageable for me, I think, because the park is in the middle, and the edges are just more sprawl until you get to, like, Pennsylvania. Anyway, my friend S in Toronto is one of the most sexually liberated people I know, and she's totally monogamous now. She and her man have lived together for about three years, and they have a dog, pretty damn sure they'll make it official sometime. They compliment one another well and I look at them...gosh, I guess I just never thought I'd see the day she'd meet her match.
I am currently visiting my sister in Atlanta (see? Lots of travel in a short span). Her baby -- my niece -- is literally the cutest thing I have ever seen in my life. Objectively. I suppose it stands to reason, when my sister is pretty, and her husband is good-looking, that they would create a gorgeous kid. But dag. This kid's gonna make other kids feel bad about themselves later in life.
Anyway, romance wise, a bit light, but fun. I went out a few times with a couple people, all fun dates, but no real urgency to push any of these to the next, more physical level. Generally, if I don't like someone I don't talk to them, let alone sit or stand in close proximity to them. So just making time to get some food or see a movie or whatever, that's a big deal for me. A little kiss here and there, a hug, a squeeze of the hand/thigh/arm that's a good space for me. Jumping the hurdle into the real meat of The Feast, well, that will have to be left to June and forward.
I have begun to fantasize again. My brain had shut that down for a while, but it's back, for sure. Even dreaming sometimes. I don't really have sex dreams, but more...proximity dreams. Me and some guy doing something, like gardening or watching a movie. Yes, a dream about watching a movie! Most of my dreams seem to be just to entertain me while I sleep instead of having relevant meaning. Except maybe when I dream of careening out of control in a car with little/no brakes. Not sure what it means, but it feels like it should be significant since it's a recurring thing. If anyone has info on that, feel free to post.
Well, America, I gotta get back to grinning like an idiot at my niece. Ciao!
Tia C
I am currently visiting my sister in Atlanta (see? Lots of travel in a short span). Her baby -- my niece -- is literally the cutest thing I have ever seen in my life. Objectively. I suppose it stands to reason, when my sister is pretty, and her husband is good-looking, that they would create a gorgeous kid. But dag. This kid's gonna make other kids feel bad about themselves later in life.
Anyway, romance wise, a bit light, but fun. I went out a few times with a couple people, all fun dates, but no real urgency to push any of these to the next, more physical level. Generally, if I don't like someone I don't talk to them, let alone sit or stand in close proximity to them. So just making time to get some food or see a movie or whatever, that's a big deal for me. A little kiss here and there, a hug, a squeeze of the hand/thigh/arm that's a good space for me. Jumping the hurdle into the real meat of The Feast, well, that will have to be left to June and forward.
I have begun to fantasize again. My brain had shut that down for a while, but it's back, for sure. Even dreaming sometimes. I don't really have sex dreams, but more...proximity dreams. Me and some guy doing something, like gardening or watching a movie. Yes, a dream about watching a movie! Most of my dreams seem to be just to entertain me while I sleep instead of having relevant meaning. Except maybe when I dream of careening out of control in a car with little/no brakes. Not sure what it means, but it feels like it should be significant since it's a recurring thing. If anyone has info on that, feel free to post.
Well, America, I gotta get back to grinning like an idiot at my niece. Ciao!
Tia C
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