A new proposal

Alright, so I am now thinking of a two year project in which the first I fast (drought) and the second I am completely open to all viable relationships (deluge).  My friend R is currently rocking the deluge.  The plan is to write this into a two-part or two-person book, one on the drought and one on the deluge.  However, we brainstormed that it'd be quite interesting if we each did both.

You might ask 'why'?  Well, drought is kinda easy for me as an introvert, and deluge is relatively easy for R because she's an extrovert.  The flip side is going to be tough for each of us...and it will probably make for the most-interesting stint of this project for us both.

Logistics, we still have to plan.  The thought of opening myself up to heartbreak is quite scary.  However, who knows?  What if it leads me to a fulfilling relationship?

In other news, to coin a new term: boomerangs.  These are the dudes that can't handle me when I'm around but totally miss me when they or I move away.  Facebook friends.  iPhone texts. "Hey when you're in town we should hang out"s.  Boomerangs.  I'm awesome, fellas.  Figure that out before you run from my awesomeness. Boomerangs are lame.

Alright, it's late.  Sleepy time.

Let the rain begin

Remember all that awesome weather I was talking about around five minutes ago?  We are now in Bay Area's rainy season.  So for the next four months it will be soggy and gray...a good time for the fast.

The lovely Giants and their march to the World Series have provided me with some pretty awesome entertainment, even without liking baseball much.  It's also provided me with some killer eye-candy when going out to watch the games at bars and restaurants.  It's all just an excuse to go out and hang with friends, anyway. 

I dreamt about kissing one of my friends last night.  Yikes!  It isn't uncommon for me to have sex dreams, but this was different than that ... it was actually pretty sweet.  He was really awkward and didn't know what to do...then he leaned over and kissed me.  I was pleasantly surprised; it was nice.  Of course when you're dreaming you don't think about consequences, or have any sense at all.  In real life would be the voice inside my head screaming "no!"  But here we are.  A starved mind gets creative, I guess.

Speaking of awkward yet awesome, my friend L and I are thinking of putting together a trip to Peru for a Spanish Immersion adventure.  Living in California has brought up the need for Spanish...I took French in high school (ha, that was applicable!), which helps in some cases, and confuses me in others.  I'm really not a language person, but when I'm surrounded it, it kind of sinks in.  The trip will be fun!  I'm there to see some ruins for sure.

Check out what I'm reading these days, so you can climb inside my head.  Til next time...

Quandry

Wow, way more than the next day, right!

I am currently pondering a very important question.  The purpose of this fast is to bring me to a new maturity level so I can be prepared to enter into positive relationships once it is over.  But is it helpful, then, to curb the chance at a fun and possibly fulfilling relationship purely for the sake of this artificial relationship-free period?

Of course I only ask myself things like this after the fact.  There's no way to build on this relationship now.  The opportunity has passed.  To preserve fast, I had to completely remove myself from the situation in which I saw this person every day.  It was getting too hard...and awkward.  I'd forgotten how uncomfortable sexual tension can be when you can't do anything about it.  It's fun when there's a chance of satisfaction. Otherwise it just kind of sucks.

Well, today is a Climate Change Action Day!  10/10/10! So I'm not taking my car anywhere today.  It's feet and public transport.  My grocery list will have to wait til tomorrow when I can schlep everything back to the apartment in a car.  The weather has provided a lovely day for walking, and all the young people are out and about.  Calif., you really can bring the sexy weather!  Now bring me some young men to match!